Wednesday, 11 January 2012

Dear, the two of you. Love, me.

No one gets tired of loving
but everyone gets tired of 
waiting, assuming, hearing promises, saying sorry and 
all the hurt.

Love, me 
(aka the girl you no longer care about)

Twenty Twelve.

      2011. A year of revelation, discouragement and heavy hearts... The much anticipated farewell of 2011 finally came. It came with no remorse or mourning. It brought excitement for the new year and high hopes of change. 2011 brought change although not many were desirable. We all have regrets, we all spend time wishing we would have done things differently .We all spend so much time waiting, praying, wishing...
       Life is bleak. Life is full of trials. Life throws people your way that you won't always get along with. Life is ruthless. Life gets the best of us sometimes. Sometimes life likes to curb stomp us. Sometimes life makes it really brutal to pick ourselves up off the floor. Life is really good at pulling us down, but sometimes when we are down we get lucky enough to experience some ups. Life is beautiful. Life is an extravagant adventure that holds so many delightful things for us. This past year seemed to have many more downs than ups. A lot of tears were shed, a lot of feelings were hurt, a lot of people left, a lot of people came...but through it all, it has made me stronger and has taught me some incredibly valuable lessons

 What I have learned from Two thousand and eleven;

-People won't always live up to my expectations...some won't even come close. The one person that wasn't supposed to ever let me down, did. There comes a time in life when I have to let go of all the drama and the people that create it and surround myself with people that make me smile so big that I forget all the sadness and focus solely on the good.
-Don't try to hurt someone on purpose just because they hurt you
-You'll have your heart broken, and you might break others
-You'll fight with your friends and maybe even fall for one of them
-Trials mold us for the greater good
-Don't worry about anything, instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.
-Just because someone is there all the time doesn't mean you should take them for granted.
-God would never take something away from me without the intention of replacing it with something better
-Count to ten, breathe
-People leave your life for a reason. If they come back it will be on their own time.
-Sadly there are very few people that you can really truly trust
-It isnt what we say or think that defines us but what we do
-When everything seems to be going wrong in my life, my mum can always fix it. She is the most selfless, beautiful, strongest mum there ever was
-Never make important decisions when you are angry
-Sometimes, silence is better
-Time does not heal all wounds
-It's ok to cry
-Listen without defending
-No one is fine on their own
-It's ok to tell people that they have hurt you
-Apologizing is much easier than arguing
-People change and may never be the person you used to know
-Forgive people freely if they are repentant
-If you make the same mistake twice, it's not a mistake, it's a choice
-We all have problems
-It's ok to take a leap of faith
-Every girl deserves to be treated like they are the most beautiful girl in the world
-Taking risks and putting yourself out there will almost always have a better outcome than sitting in the shadows and wishing you had the guts to do something
-Lauren and Ashley are the most supportive, trustworthy sisters to walk this earth. I am so blessed to have two amazing sisters that would do anything for me.
-Some people aren't meant to be in your life
-People are selfish
-You can't judge people based on their past
-There are boys out there that are worth your time
-Blood means nothing to some people
-Khurram and Clay are the best brothers I could ask for. I love them dearly
-Lindsay, Katie and Maryn are possibly the best friends I could ever ask for. I am so grateful for them and the examples they set for me
-Love will take and take and take until you give more...and even then, it isn't always enough.
-I will never know why

"Change is the essence of life; be willing to surrender who you are for what you could become."

Love, me