Tuesday, 29 May 2012

Momma bear

I apologize in advance for this post as it will be a jumble of emotion. This subject is so dear to my heart, and I have a hard time expressing my love in words.

We all come across a strong, influential person who leaves a powerful impact on our lives. Luckily for me, I have had that person since day one. My mother. She taught me how to take my first steps, how to tie my shoes, how to love, she was always there to bandage up my wounds and be a shoulder to cry on. She has always been there for me as my support.
My mother is as intelligent a woman as I have ever known. She would have been successful in any field, but I am forever grateful she saved her brilliance for raising my siblings and I. I am always amazed by the energy she has to clean up after us, drive everywhere, help with homework. I have never seen her have a peaceful night. Her mind is always constantly thinking about us, our future, our problems...
My mother is the strongest woman I know. I swear everyone claims that about their own mother. But they don't know. They don't know what my mum has been through. She has been through hell. I don't exaggerate. It kills me to see what a toll these past two years have taken on her. It kills me mostly because I can't do anything about it. Words won't change things. I don't even know the right words to say. I wish I could change things for her.  Through all of the tough times, she was there for us. She was the first person to pick us up and be our support. She screams, she shouts, but the anger never lasts very long. She never stops giving. She has taught me how to lead my life. She has taught me to believe in people and never take anyone for granted. She has taught me to be loyal. She taught me to stand up for myself and the meaning of a true friend. She is always giving me strength and constantly pushing me to be a better person. Everything I am, I owe to her. I would be nothing without her. My mother is my best friend. I spend the majority of my time hanging out with her, not friends. She is a mother to not only me but so many others. She always suffers in silence. She tries her very hardest to hide things from us. She would take a bullet for anyone. She is a woman of God. She is faithful and loving. I admire her for her unfailing faith in the Lord. Although he has sent an unfair amount of trials her way, her faith never wavers. She has taught me the two most important things in life- The Gospel and family. She has held my family together through the storm. She never gave up hope, and she never stopped trying.
My mum has always been there for me. Sometimes when things are always in your life, you become complacent. You take things for granted. I am guilty of taking her for granted sometimes. I would be so lost without her in my life. She is my everything. She is my best friend and my pillar of strength. She is the iron woman. She has taught me to never give up on anyone. To love them unconditionally. Her love knows no boundaries. I
I am forever in debt to my mother. I am who I am today because of her. She is the most amazing woman I know. I can't imagine life without her. I love her for being my friend. For being understanding. I am so thankful the Lord has blessed me with such a wonderful, loving mother. She will always be my best friend. I love her more than anyone else in this world. She is my everything.

Tuesday, 22 May 2012


You can really tell the difference between an ordinary and a loyal friend. Lately, I have really noticed the lack of loyalty missing in the character make-up of most people. For a long time I would pretend not to notice the lack of loyalty in my own friends. As long as I could stand it anyways. Then sooner or later, a confrontation would happen. The friends would deny there was a problem and things would be ok for a week or so. Then, things would go back as they were before. I’ve finally decided it’s time. Time to cut these people out. It’s not worth it anymore. Life is hard enough without “friends” constantly making you feel small. True, you have no right to dictate their behavior, or tell them what they can and cannot do, but you also shouldn’t have to tell them to be loyal and true to you. Time to move on. Time to surround myself with real people. Real people that know the meaning of the word loyalty and know how to be a true friend.

Love, me