Monday, 9 April 2012

Putting the pieces back together.

You say you tried your best, but we both know the truth.
You lost it long ago. Your family won't acknowldege you. You up and left us all
Look what you've ruined...
I can now say with great certainty this won't be easy but I'm letting go of you.
I can now see with more clarity, though my bones are trembling.
We need to move on from you.
We all will heal again.
We                      all                       will                        heal.

You looked me in the eye and swore you changed this time
I cant believe in words I've heard a million times.
You locked your hand in mine and promised things were fine just
to clear your conscious. All that you can do is lie, and leave the life you left behind.
We were miserable and broke down inside.
I can feel my heart ache, it constantly reminds me we were never good enough for your love.
But we all will heal again.
We                      all                       will                        heal

Love, me

Tuesday, 3 April 2012

God gave me you.

God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt.
On my own I'm only half of what I could be.
I can't do without you.
For when I think I've lost my way,
God gave me you.

Love, me


Random thoughts that accompany insomnia
I went to the Hunger Games last week. Made me fall in love all over again and want to re-read the book.
I got my first pay cheque from my new job. Getttiiinnn papperrrr.
I feel spring coming :)
I finally made up my mind and have made one of the biggest decisions of my life. So ready for this new adventure.
Did you know you can still be friends with someone even after breaking up with them? Weird, but kind of wonderful.
Luke Bryan has a beautiful smile that makes me a little weak in the knees. His voice isn't bad either.
My heated mattress is heaven sent.
Eating out is over rated. 
You look so good it hurts sometimes.
Having your best friend as your room mate is lovely.
Sometimes it takes years to realize your "best friends" really aren't friends at all.
I could watch episodes of the Ellen show all day every day.
Creeping celebrities on twitter takes up too much of my time.
I bought pink pants and they make me quite happy.
God is great.
I want a puppy dog. Mainly because I have the cutest name in mind.
My family is funny. Maybe I am biased. 
My 16 year old sister has more boyfriends than me. What is my life coming to?
Girls are stupid. I sometimes wonder why I don't just stick to having all boy friends.
So excited for summer. Sad it will be my last one with short shorts and inappropriate clothing. Call me a sinner if you want.
I can't help but stutter at work. There is something about the place that turns me into a retard. 
I have this urgent desire to go somewhere tropical and wear a coral bikini. Random?
I should probably stop using the words damnit and hell before the MTC
I love being outside. I want to live outside.
I think I am becoming less clumsy. I haven't had a major injury for a few days. Winning!
I have to wear my hair up for work everyday. Love an excuse to not have to do it.
I left my heart in Tennesse...But it's ok because I am going back to get it in a few weeks :)
My heart is finally full, my mind is finally clear.

This is what happens at 3am.
(A possible reason why I am single)
Love, me